I hope this post doesn’t come across as particularly emo, but it probably will.
First off, to understand where it is coming from, you have to understand that the last few years have been some of the darkest spiritual time in my life, and they came to a head the end of last year. In the last half of December, I was in a pit that felt like there was no way out.
Somehow, I got to thinking about Jesus’ words from the cross, “My God, My God, Why have you forgotten me?” I’d thought of those many times. It was the way I felt for several years. I felt abandoned by God.
Finally, it came to me. The problem had been not that I had been forgotten by God. The problem was that I had forgotten Him. My prayer all along should have been, “My God, My God, Why have I forgotten You?”
I dunno. I just found it a great revelation. It was the first thing that let me move forward for a long time.